Have Faith In Yourself

Posted: 8/10/2012

Ever since Elementary school, I've been bullied. I was picked on at recess for the things I did, the clothes I wore, and they use to taunt me about the boys I liked.

Ever since then, I've never been the same. My whole elementary, and middle school years I've tried to be different. Prettier, cooler, and someone I wasn't. Just to fit in and stop being bullied and actually be beautiful like everyone else. As I tried, it made it worse. More words were in the picture. I was called, "fake". Which means, that I was acting like someone I wasn't. Which was true, but nobody really understood. When I tried to explain, nobody would listen, just kept calling me names.

People use to call me ugly, stupid, that I smelled bad, I never showered, nobody liked me, I had no friends, I was a stalker, etc. It hurt and I felt worse about myself. I got held back my 8th grade year, and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. All the people who bullied me were gone, and I was with other people.

Than I was moved to the high school and got bullied when I first got there, so I came back and moved into a new grade. Bullying started there, two boys in my science class purposely talked to me about failing and getting held back, because I had failed one grade. It hurt and I felt worthless, they always did it and made fun of me and embarassed me in front of all the "popular people". My reputation was ruined.

Also, to fake friendships that made everything worse. I planned suicide, cut myself, and got counseling. My self esteem was so low, that I'd result to anything just to be wanted and loved. I'm 16, now going to be a sophmore soon.

The bullying has gone down since it's summer and I've changed a lot. Physically and mentally for the good. I seen the boy who bullied me in school outside of school the other day, he didn't say anything. I still get rumors about me, like last summer was the worst. But, I learned to shake it off and forget about what people say. Wiped the tears and moved on. All you really have to do, is tell someone. make sure you do, before it's too late. & Realize how stupid & insecure they are and have confidence and faith in yourself and always look to your faith, family and good friends when you need them. Because they'll always be there. It's a battle, but it's worth the struggle in the end I promise. <3

By: Tia